E

Dear ex-best friend, or you will still accept me as a long lost best friend,

You popped into my dream just now, literally just now
In there, we were happily doing things together
Like we were supposed to do 7 years ago

Looking back
We have known each other for almost 8 years now
Getting to know you is the next best thing that happen to me during the high school period

Many things to say, but little can I express
Nonetheless, I miss you


S

Look back at the previous blog posts
Noticing how much I've grown up since all these years

Never thought that growing up would be so fast
I never feel like growing up
It means that my parents are growing older
That my responsibilities as the eldest sister are becoming more adult-like
That my college/university life is leaving soon

How I wish time would slow down a little bit
Just enough for me to enjoy the rest of my degree life
Before the need of facing the cruelty of the society

But time wouldn't wait for anyone
As it would just ticking and tocking it's way through

No matter what
I appreciate everything that happen in my life
No matter how short or how long
No matter how important or how unnecessary
They made up a part of me
For me being me

Thank you



04.49AM  13.07.2017
The day that I turned 22

Siblings

Siblings are
Someone who you can bully
Someone who you can fight with
Someone who you can scold them

But they are also
Someone who make you wanted to turn into a better person so that they can look up to you as a role model
Someone who you can play with
Someone who you can seek help when you need one
Someone who you love and love you
Someone who will be there for you other than you parents

Siblings are the best thing in life given by parents
Love each and every one of you



Sharon

突然有一种感慨
很想发在这里
没有什么人看到的地方
把这里当成一个树洞
说说心事

再过几个月
就21岁了
10年前
谁会想到21岁那么快就会到
11岁的我
还在憧憬
10年后的自己
是怎么样的成功
虽然
现在的我也没有非常成功
但我非常喜欢我现在的状况
进修着自己喜欢的科目
每天都会学到新的东西
实在是很充实

现在看来
21岁也没什么吗
只不过
朋友多了些
功课重了些
思想成熟了一些
可是我觉得这就是
成长的必经之路
非常值得

没什么
就觉得
我爱生活

Never realize I've been ignoring this blog until it turned 2016
Coming to the fourth month of 2016, found out it was quite a exciting one
Getting more and more use to university life
and maybe single life
found out university course/subjects are more suitable for me
I'm quite excited in learning them
although sometimes i'll sleep in class
which i think i did it quite often no matter i'm in secondary school or uni

after being a psychology student
i've realized that i've became a person that i think i would wanna be
always observing people from a different perspective
so glad i chose the field that i'm interested

think i quite enjoy my assignments though
they are the ones that help me in scoring my results

anyway, i love you
psychology

又一次感觉到世事无常
六月份时看到他还好好的
中气十足
三个月后   就接到他去世的消息
很遗憾   我不能去参加你的葬礼
也不能去尽一点孝心
但是   我诚心在这里
愿你安息
我在这里   思念你

有很多事情其实我都憋在心里不说
因为我都不知道可以和谁讲
最近我深刻体会到
如果父母过世了   兄弟姐妹之间成家了   都会变成“亲戚”了
其实我都在想
是我们家庭的问题吗
还是大家的关系都悄悄在变了
我真的很怀疑   也很遗憾
因为我真的很想念以前单纯的时候
大家和和睦睦   快快乐乐的
时过境迁
难以想象以后的日子   会是怎样的
应该只会越来越尴尬吧
大家都戴着面具   用应付陌生人的态度来面对曾经最亲的家人
家人   家人    怎么就越走越远了呢

每每回到婆婆家的时候
看到小叔叔   都会联想到我的干哥哥
他们都同样都是30岁
可是却都过着不一样的日子
一个整日无所事事   不工作    借高利贷   上网吧
一个力争上游   虽说赚得不很多   但应该凑合得足够存活在都市之中
我就一直在想
是为什么两个同年龄的人   为什么会相差那么远的？
是因为家庭的原因吗？
慈母多败儿   老人说的话准没错
母亲敌不过心软   一次又一次的原谅、包容孩子的过错
造就了孩子成年了   还是依赖着父母过日子
做错了就等着别人来擦屁股
小事就这样了   那大事来的时候是不是也要母亲来承担呢？
一味的纵容只会让他泥足深陷
可惜    当局者迷   怎么劝都不听
在一个家   女人扮演的角色很重要
真的很重要
别小看他们所扮演的角色
分分钟影响了你的下半辈子
其实说回来
我真心希望小叔叔能回到正途   努力工作赚钱
不再做妈宝   可是看情况这愿望应该很难实现了吧
我真的不想说长辈的坏话


祝愿大家平安

RIP

Thank you for your 12 years of teaching
i will always remember those time we've had
i've spent my childhood and teenage years with you
and now you've gone to heaven
i will miss you with all my heart
i still cannot believe that you're gone
i wish to go and visit you but i can't make it
i'm so sorry
i really think you're a good teacher
i will still pursue my ballet dream in future
i will make you proud
thank you
may you rest in peace
<3 p="">

其实我一直想找男朋友
不是因为我很想要谈情说爱
只是因为
独自一人在外求学
有时候真的很寂寞
巨蟹座
真的很需要家人的陪伴
还没开始新的学年
我就已经开始想家了
到时候要出国
怎么熬呢？

其实我不排斥到外地去念书

我只是不喜欢离开家人的感觉

好像无论任何家庭活动你都不能参与

感觉好像被排除在外

当你想帮他们忙

又离得太远

当你想向他们寻求帮助

他们爱莫能助

要自己生活其实不难

只是我还是不太能控制随家人的思念

算了吧

20岁

是该长大了

加油！

你可以的！

The Choice by Nicholas Sparks

He added cheese to another cracker. "When does your boyfriend get back to town?"
"Are we back to this topic again?"
"I'm just thinking of you. I don't want to get you in trouble."
"I appreciate your concern, but I'm a big girl. And not that it matters, but he'll be coming home on Wednesday. Why?"
"Because I've enjoyed getting to know you these last couple of days."
"And I've enjoyed getting to know you."
"But are you bummed it's coming to an end?"
"It don't have to come to an end. We can still be neighbours."
"And I'm sure your boyfriend wouldn't mind if I took you out for another motorcycle ride, or went for a picnic with you, or if you sat in the hot tub with me, right?"
The answer was obvious, and her expressions became more serious. "He probably wouldn't be too happy about it."
"So it'll be ending."
"We can still be friends."
He stared at her for a moment, then suddenly grabbed at his chest as if he'd been shot. "You really know how to hurt a guy."
"What are you talking about?"
He shook his head. "There's no such thing as being friends. Not with single men and women our age. If just doesn't work like that, unless you're talking about someone you've known for a very long time. Certainly not when it comes to strangers."
Gabby opened her mouth to respond, but there was really nothing to say.
"And besides," he went on, "I'm not sure I want to be friends."
"Why not?"
"Because most likely I'd find myself wanting more than that."

其实我觉得我是一个
享受孤独   却又好怕孤独   的人
有些时候
我真的很喜欢一个人呆着
一个人看戏   一个人看书   一个人温习
（一个人吃饭我可不行   真真受不了）
可是到了某个时候
我觉得我真的很想要有个人
可以给我撒撒娇   依靠一下
虽然这也可以解释为   发娇了
内心深处   我很明白
我很想要一个男朋友
好像一个哥哥一样照顾我
可是我也很明白
像我这样的性格
孤僻   沉闷    不善社交  
爱呆在家   陪陪家人    上上网    看看书
这样很难交男朋友吧？
妈妈常说
你都不出去
怎样找到男朋友啊？
她说
我的眼睛长在头顶上
男生都看不上眼
其实不是的
要找一个   称心如意  
我爱的   爱我的
真的很难
世界那么大
你怎么知道他在那一个角落
又要如何去寻找
所以
唯一可以做的
就是慢慢地等待吧
等待他的出现
所以
到那个时候
就一个人好好的生活吧
对吧？  

就发发牢骚

家庭纠纷

其实我觉得只要一扯到钱或自身利益的问题
对于非常看重自身利益的人来说
这是在侵犯他们的权益
所以   只要家庭成员里有这样的人存在
就一定会发生家庭纠纷
一定不会离开钱的问题
妈妈有时候会和我说
她与舅舅之间的问题
其实我不怎么想听
因为我觉得这是他们的事情
虽然对我还是会有影响
可是我只要大略知道就好了
我不想参与他们争吵甚至是撕破脸的过程
我觉得这样会影响我日后面对长辈该有的情绪
我不想因为这样
而影响我对他们的印象
那些争吵
我知道大概
不需要细节吧

其实说我们这个年纪的
大不大   小不小
没有稳定收入
需要靠父母
其实也不好做人吧
有时候我真的不想听这种八卦
也不想回应
无论是赞成或不赞成对方的论点
我也会觉得很累
虽然我只是池塘旁的小鱼
唉
还是很想念那时懵懵懂懂的时候
对周遭事物都很好奇
什么都想试一遍
现在
我只想窝在家里
安安静静的就好了
看看书   上上网
生活就这样吧
其实还是有些梦想没有实现
可是好像没有动力了

那时的前后座

是我永远都无法忘记的回忆

中学时期的死党

长大了是否还一样呢？

好想念你

还有两个月

我们都加油

好想念那时候

你唤我的名字

可如今

已经没有人在这样唤我了

好想再听一次你唤我的名字

可是看来好像不能了

我们已经越离越远了

好像不能回去了

回顾我前些年所写的部落格
你说
爱情只是生命里的一部分
是吗？是这样吗？
当我们又再一次在一起的时候
我相信你不是这样想的吧
其实，我也不知道我之前在想什么
然后和你分手
有后悔 也有感慨
可是事情都已经过去了
就让时间把它抹去吧
不管怎样
都祝你的未来 一路顺风
照你所想要的方式走下去

世界真奇妙
当我想遇见你的时候
却都没遇见
世界说大不大，说小不小
真奇妙
或许这就是所谓的缘分吧

长假后开学的第二天

跟妈妈通电话的时候说

哇！我还有两个星期就可以回家了呢

麻麻：你才会去上课第二天好么？

想想，对吼，我昨天早上才到这里

怎么感觉就好想过了很久呢

每天每天 都在计算着回家的日子

真想赖在家里 哪里都不去

刚刚在豆瓣追帖子

看着楼主一个两个有情人终成眷属

我多羡慕啊

还有一个 比我大一年 20岁就结婚了啊

闺蜜有了男朋友 我很开心

可是另一边厢 我很寂寞 绝望

我觉得我这一辈子就是这样了

我看我以后就赖着爸爸妈妈好了

我知道我自己的

平时最爱看那些言情故事

是为了要填补我所缺的

我知道的

我知道的

一个人会寂寞，不因为他真的寂寞，而因为他相信自己是寂寞的，而且会一直寂寞下去。

小小的明信片 - 彪民

寂寞   寂寞

Actually i was considering of creating a blog on Nuffnang
a blog about books that i love to read
i was wondering
am i able to do this
or should i do this

nobody will see this blog though
i'm just talking to the computer