又一次感觉到世事无常
六月份时看到他还好好的
中气十足
三个月后   就接到他去世的消息
很遗憾   我不能去参加你的葬礼
也不能去尽一点孝心
但是   我诚心在这里
愿你安息
我在这里   思念你

有很多事情其实我都憋在心里不说
因为我都不知道可以和谁讲
最近我深刻体会到
如果父母过世了   兄弟姐妹之间成家了   都会变成“亲戚”了
其实我都在想
是我们家庭的问题吗
还是大家的关系都悄悄在变了
我真的很怀疑   也很遗憾
因为我真的很想念以前单纯的时候
大家和和睦睦   快快乐乐的
时过境迁
难以想象以后的日子   会是怎样的
应该只会越来越尴尬吧
大家都戴着面具   用应付陌生人的态度来面对曾经最亲的家人
家人   家人    怎么就越走越远了呢

每每回到婆婆家的时候
看到小叔叔   都会联想到我的干哥哥
他们都同样都是30岁
可是却都过着不一样的日子
一个整日无所事事   不工作    借高利贷   上网吧
一个力争上游   虽说赚得不很多   但应该凑合得足够存活在都市之中
我就一直在想
是为什么两个同年龄的人   为什么会相差那么远的？
是因为家庭的原因吗？
慈母多败儿   老人说的话准没错
母亲敌不过心软   一次又一次的原谅、包容孩子的过错
造就了孩子成年了   还是依赖着父母过日子
做错了就等着别人来擦屁股
小事就这样了   那大事来的时候是不是也要母亲来承担呢？
一味的纵容只会让他泥足深陷
可惜    当局者迷   怎么劝都不听
在一个家   女人扮演的角色很重要
真的很重要
别小看他们所扮演的角色
分分钟影响了你的下半辈子
其实说回来
我真心希望小叔叔能回到正途   努力工作赚钱
不再做妈宝   可是看情况这愿望应该很难实现了吧
我真的不想说长辈的坏话


祝愿大家平安

RIP

Thank you for your 12 years of teaching
i will always remember those time we've had
i've spent my childhood and teenage years with you
and now you've gone to heaven
i will miss you with all my heart
i still cannot believe that you're gone
i wish to go and visit you but i can't make it
i'm so sorry
i really think you're a good teacher
i will still pursue my ballet dream in future
i will make you proud
thank you
may you rest in peace
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其实我一直想找男朋友
不是因为我很想要谈情说爱
只是因为
独自一人在外求学
有时候真的很寂寞
巨蟹座
真的很需要家人的陪伴
还没开始新的学年
我就已经开始想家了
到时候要出国
怎么熬呢？

其实我不排斥到外地去念书

我只是不喜欢离开家人的感觉

好像无论任何家庭活动你都不能参与

感觉好像被排除在外

当你想帮他们忙

又离得太远

当你想向他们寻求帮助

他们爱莫能助

要自己生活其实不难

只是我还是不太能控制随家人的思念

算了吧

20岁

是该长大了

加油！

你可以的！

The Choice by Nicholas Sparks

He added cheese to another cracker. "When does your boyfriend get back to town?"
"Are we back to this topic again?"
"I'm just thinking of you. I don't want to get you in trouble."
"I appreciate your concern, but I'm a big girl. And not that it matters, but he'll be coming home on Wednesday. Why?"
"Because I've enjoyed getting to know you these last couple of days."
"And I've enjoyed getting to know you."
"But are you bummed it's coming to an end?"
"It don't have to come to an end. We can still be neighbours."
"And I'm sure your boyfriend wouldn't mind if I took you out for another motorcycle ride, or went for a picnic with you, or if you sat in the hot tub with me, right?"
The answer was obvious, and her expressions became more serious. "He probably wouldn't be too happy about it."
"So it'll be ending."
"We can still be friends."
He stared at her for a moment, then suddenly grabbed at his chest as if he'd been shot. "You really know how to hurt a guy."
"What are you talking about?"
He shook his head. "There's no such thing as being friends. Not with single men and women our age. If just doesn't work like that, unless you're talking about someone you've known for a very long time. Certainly not when it comes to strangers."
Gabby opened her mouth to respond, but there was really nothing to say.
"And besides," he went on, "I'm not sure I want to be friends."
"Why not?"
"Because most likely I'd find myself wanting more than that."