looking back at those vows that i've made
they seemed so fake
yea
i didn't keep my promises
maybe you'll hate me
but i don't care
as long as i'm living happily
that's enough
but maybe you should hate me
that'll be better
i think

well
today is a memorable day
found out an old facebook account that haven't been touched since 2011
found out lots of message in the inbox that haven't been deleted
which contains lots of memories that i wouldn't like to be reminded
and found out this blog that i haven't update for months? years?
so......
looking back at those posts that i've posted
found out that i'm acting so stupidly
sometimes
it's actually good to be single
maybe
i enjoy my life now
maybe it could be better
but i appreciate what i've got.
that's enough
i think
sometimes
we just need to let go

Yes.
I've failed again.
I've failed my piano test again.
And yes.
I'm going to have the third exam.
Maybe I don't seem sad, but deep in my heart,
I feel like crying.
But there's no shoulder for me.
And I've wasted a lot of money.
Each and every year, the exam fees will increase and I need to pay that in order for exam.
I'm sad.
Emo.

今年還沒畢業，我就已經想到畢業感言了。
今年時我中學生涯重的最後一年。
回顧去年，我們與隔壁班相處得不錯。
自己人也培養了該有的默契。
我十分珍惜這段得來不易的友情。
雖然有勾心鬥角、不愉快的事，但是我相信，值得我們回憶的事情一定比較多。
真的希望我們得友誼能長久。
不會一斬就斷。

a few days more, it's the 6th of april

and this is my piano exam date

it's grade 8 exam again

hope i can pass the exam this time

i dont wish to have this exam again

twice is more than enough

plus, i hope i can go for diploma this end of the year

dont know if i can do this.

pray hard that i can

hope my grandpa can grand my wishes

make my wishes come true

went to gambang's F.L.S. crematorium this morning

cleaned my father-side grandpa.s graveyard

kinda miss him every time i've visited him

this year, there are no uncles and aunties coming with us

it's kinda good

so that no one will give us the "black face"

sigh

life's like this

hope my grandpa is great at heaven!

love you, grandpa

Exam's over.
Everybody can sigh a relief now.
Enjoying their holiday without worries.
Unfortunately I have my piano exam next month.
Sigh.
Again.
Moody for today.
Fine.
Just ignore me and find me whenever you need help.
Fine.
Good.
GO AWAY!
I don't need this kind of friends!