it's hard to avoid thinking what u shouldn't think

is there anything for me to do?!

any tuition?!

practise?!

homework?!

as long as i won't think about those that i shouldn't think of.

i wanna fill up my time.

anything for me to do!?

how do i get through one night without you
if i had to live without you
what kind of life would that be
oh i, i need you in my arms, need you to hold
you're my world, my heart, my soul

if you ever leave
baby you would take away everything good in my life
and tell me now

how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go

how do i ever, ever survive
how do i, how do i
oh, how do i live

without you, there'd be no sun in my sky
there would be no love in my life
there'd be no world left for me
and i, oh baby, i don't know what i would do
i'd be lost if i lost you

if you ever leave
baby you would take away everything real in my life
and tell me now

how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go

how do i ever, ever survive
how do i, how do i
oh, how do i live

please tell me baby
how do i go on

if you ever leave
baby you would take away everything
need you with me
baby don't you know that you're everything good in my life
and tell me now

how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go

how do i ever, ever survive
how do i, how do i
oh, how do i live

how do i live without you
how do i live without you baby
how do i live



leanne rimes
how do i live without you

it's hard to control ur mind
not to think this and that
it's hard to make a decision
on which way u should go
left or right
it'll break ur heart if u go to the left
it'll let u be complicated if u go to the right
yeah...
so just let it be?!

hmm...

i did the wrong thing

i shouldn't have told u that

hmm....

know what?!

my sis bite me

and it looks like a snake did that

something happened yesterday

and it caused my eyes to be swollen
about my first kiss
my parents knew about that
and they were kinda like angry?!
and i've been grounded because of that
i need to be at home for the whole holiday
since my dad's car was spoilt so we cna't go for vacation
my mom told me about 'bible' yesterday
she said that i need to keep a distance from u
when she said that
i think of breaking up
and this thought made me cry for a whole night
my mom even told me that
my dad wants to find you for a 'talk'
and luckily that they came late yesterday
if not i can't imagine what will happen

breaking up made me cried for the whole night
and i even wrote something and ready to send it to u this morning

but i don't have the courage

thinking of the breaking up made me feel like crying..

i don't wanna get swollen eyes anymore

so i'm so sorry to tell u baby..

i can't go out with you this holiday

i'm not going for iu

i didn't tell u this yesterday

because i don't wanna affect ur mood for exam

cz i think of telling u about the breaking up yesterday..

sorry darling.

*teardrops*

yeappy!!!!
i'm free from now!!
3 weeks' exam is over!!!!
i'm back to my story books!!!!

know what!?

i ate many things yesterday!!!
- 1 spicy chicken mcdeluxe
- 1 fillet o fish
- several nuggets
- 1/2 of the fries
- a cup of coke


mag said that i'm gaining weight !! haha!

22.5.2011

0126


a day is over
and i miss you more
i can't control my mind to stop missing you
i can even think of you when i'm doing chemistry
urgh!
i'm gonna die!
so i'm going to bed now
hoping that i would dream of you later!
good night!




2223

OMG!
why i am still like this?!
why i'll still blushed when i'm answering your call!?
urgh!
i'll still blushed after so many years!
aaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!

21.5.2011

2209

i don't know that if i can stand for so many days to not talk or chat with you at all
today is the first day
and i'm now already suffering
how about the other day!?
i'm gonna die for it
do you know how much i miss u?!
there's plenty that you can't even count them!
miss you much baby!
urgh!
please tell me how to stand for so many days?!
i'm gonna die because of missing you!

19.5.2011

23.49

baby i'm sooo sorry
i wanted to chat with u so much but i can't
i miss you so much
i'm sooooooooooo sorry
what i can do to return it back?!
please don't be angry!
baby ~



23.54

today we've exam for add maths and chemistry
the add maths is just like : what the hell is this?!
and i wonder do i need to go through these 'what the hell' moment on monday?!
maybe it's because of the sleeping late on the day before
i felt so tired and sleep today
i didn't concentrate on my tuition
but luckily teacher just let us do revision
later at night
D and M came my house to do revision for maths
D is so hardworking
but M and i just studied for about one and a half hour
then we went playing fb, twitter etc.
but we had an amazing time just now
just pray hard for our modern maths

20.5.2011

two weeks are gone
and our exam is going to end
there are still 3 more days for pure science students
and 5 days = 1 week for those who took for account
what welcomes us after our exam ends?!
HOLIDAY!!
yeappy!!
what a great news to be heard!
just that the coming week is going to be tough
we are going to sit for biology, chemistry, physics, add maths paper 2 and bc paper 1
so we just need to stand for one more week!
then we'll be free after that!
yuhoo!!



12pm

18/5/2011

u said u're going to call me at 12.00am
then i keep on peeping at my phone and checking on the time to make sure that i'm just beside my phone when u're going to call...
at last the phone rang and i picked it up with blush!
i wonder why i will still blush after years we've been through!
hearing you saying the word 'baby' on the other end is just a good feeling
i've fell in love with the last sentence you've said..
my eyes are 90% closed now...
so good night...


12.30am 19/5/2011

being the one who is supporting u behind is not an easy job
but i'm glad that i'm the one who is suppporting u
i know when i should be serious
and when i should be naughty
and i'm glad that u're the one who is there for me when i'm tired or needed for support
so tell me when u need me
and i'll tell u when i need u
my shoulder is always here for u


i'm always here for u

just because of u i'm not single anymore
just because of u i'm being more and more naughty
just because of u my blog is getting sweeter and sweeter
just because of u i will sit in front of the computer smiling like a mad woman
just because of u i will do all kinds of expressions in front of the computer when u said something
just because of u i've experienced the best thing in my life
just because of u i've been through my precious teenage 16 with sweetness
just because of u i will take care myself better so that u will do it too
just because of u i can't concentrate when i'm trying to read my sejarah
just because of u i knew that there's really understanding between us
just because of u i found out that i fell in love with some of the love songs that can really describe us

just because of u i've done many things that i wouldn't think that i will do...
i've been through a precious day
i've been through an amazing valentine's day
i've been through a wonderful time with u
everyday with u is just like valentine's =)

i'm just wondering will this last forever?!
and will i ever find somebody that love and care for me so much if there's one day that u'll leave me?!



will it be


















or will it be















then















at last?!

recently
i'm addicted to these 2 songs
and i love the lyrics very very much!
one of them is in chinese

- 最重要的决定-
-范玮琪-

-just a kiss-
-lady antebellum-

future

future
i don't know what will happen
but what i wish is
u're in my future
we can form a family
with 2-3 children
i know it's now too early to talk about this
but i can't stop my mind to think about this sometimes
i really wish that i could come true
and what we have is just like 黑人和范范
it's like fairytale
i didn't hope to be the princess
and i know there ain't prince waiting for me
what i want is just simple and ordinary
can we achieve that?!
=)

最重要的決定- 范瑋琪

我常在想应该再也找不到
任何人想你对我那么好
好到我的家人也被照料
我的朋友还为你撑腰

你还是有一堆缺点改不掉
拗起来气得仙女都跳脚
可是人生完美的事太少
我们不能什么都想要

你是我最重要的决定
我愿意每天在你身边苏醒
就连吵架也很过瘾不会冷冰
因为真爱没有输赢只有亲密

你是我最重要的决定
我愿意打破对未知的恐惧
就算流泪也能放晴将心比心
因为幸福没有捷径只有经营

first kiss seems to be like a wonderful experience in my life
and i didn't know that i'll experience it that fast
erm...
it's kinda loving?! caring?! =p
haha!!
it's kinda romantic actually
and i even felt my cheeks burning after my first kiss..
abit embarrassed actually..
i gave away my second kiss right after my first kiss...
i wonder when is the third one?! =p
i've tried with opposite sex but i haven't try with same sex!!
can i try with my friends?! haha!!
i think no one will wanna try with me!!
and they'll think that i'm crazy and abnormal..!!
hahahaha!!! XD

first kiss is always one of the most important moment for a girl in once a lifetime...
and i've just experienced this wonderful moment a few days ago..
don't ask me about the feeling...
if u wanna know, i can try it with u...
XD

actually i really scared that u (baby) will angry and don't wanna bother me... =p
don't know why... =p
and u've said : u've did loving me for 4 years and still ...... >> don't know how to say
i know... =p
it's my version la..
i've did loving u for 4 years and i'm still feeling the same with the first time i'm with u... having the 脸红心跳 moment when i'm with u... =p


rmb 09052011

forever seems so far away
but yea...
as what u've said
i love u forever
i'll promise u baby...
i'll wait for u forever
=)

today i've been through a kinda boring day in the morning

we the whole class didn't went down for our PE lesson
all of us just wanna study for exam (the coming mid-term)
and keep on chit-chatting about this and that
we all were exciting and talk alot about IU.


plus, today is the day for lower 6 intake
so there's something new for our topics...
i saw michelle there... kinda excited..
i think our day and periods just filled with the topic ----> IU
haha!!right after chinese lesson, something surprised happened...
and this caused that i listed today as one of my special day other than my birthday!


in the afternoon, i went for my haircut
and my fringe is now so short and i look like a noob!!
OMG!!

something like this...

ps: i slep when i'm having hair treatment! the first time i ever slept in a saloon!!

today i'm trying to be a good student...
i've attend every class and didn't even ponteng any of them...
haha!!
kinda proud of it
i've been through 4 periods of physics
and 1 hour and 15 minutes of chemistry
attention : that 1 hour and 15 minutes's chemistry is an extra class which is held after school...
can u imagine what we've been through today!?
what an 'exciting' day i had!
our chemistry extra class ends at 4.30pm
and i have tuition right after that which is at 5pm...
woohoo!!!
learning the same thing again!!!
that's my day!!

i had an boring day
with 3 periods of physics
and the teacher even asks us to stay back for extra classes..
some of us stayed back...
and some didn't
we're just to good at ignoring teacher i think...
yeah.. this is my day
and i don't know why i'm having headache now...
so i will go to sleep soon...

i won't lie to u
i won't leave u alone
i won't do things that make u worry
i won't this and that...

please remember
i wouldn't wanna be single as i'm in a relationship with u
but if u ever wanna leave me alone
and find another one
i'll be alright and being single is okay to me
if that day really comes true
i'll let go
really, baby....

29th of april 2011

a big day just passed..
prince william and kate middleton just get married..
they made a perfect match...
love their wedding...
love kate's wedding dress and veil...
love the kissing scene...
and i love the : i will....